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Look at this as a long rant, a few pages from a book which you have been reading. That book is called reality and it gets to you around you in full three-dimensional projection. It gives you senses to smell, look and hear; but there is more inside of you and that’s happiness and sadness, to be freightened and attracted to which lives around us. It’s because reality is so hard to change, because it happens day after day with cause and effect, where we have so little to say in. It’s time in it’s purest form.

To explain what reality really is, we don’t have to go Kansas to see Dorothy, Reality is like a bubble, which is around you, which spreads as your bubble gets bigger. The better your ideas are, the more people that will want to be part of that bubble. The worse those ideas are, the further you want to be away from that person so you don’t get affected by the wantings and doings of that particular person.

Some people want to control our bubble, or .. well, to be atleast part of it. We call it society as it is. What we saw as impossible about 12 years ago on American reality series, is all happening at our doorsteps. Both police and criminality is adapting to the standards of today, but also how people get approached. Criminality shouldn’t be taken lightly, although there are more frequent cases than ever of errors and recklessness around Europe taking down innocent lives.

Look at the news, the ever ongoing war, traffic problems all over, the drugs wars started in the US and ongoing with atleast seven busts a day in Britain, never ending taxes, smog; people being afraid of insults, getting shot, raids and assaults by police, also happening in Belgium! Our policemen are there to help society. The civilian for the civilian with the power to work in function; not to use or abuse that particular function, like some might think with their position. Lady justice holds her balance in the middle with the blindfold on; leave her deciding which is right and wrong, not those who operate in function to aid a good working society in peace; without too much military power to oppress it’s citizens.

It is not true, that which I wish for, that reality is not true at all! Every day recklessness is demanding lives of innocents every day. Zero tolerance is which gets top priority and the principles of a true gentlemen are no more. This brings a rather bitter and bad taste in your mouth, isn’t it? Reading the true reality around you, which is happening around you while you are sitting in your warm bubble. Probably not everything will not be in that collection of oddities around your taste and likes; but the true feeling of what most around us really crave for will not be in our living quarters for a long time…

So, where did we fast-forward to a society where everyone thinks about themself, where bankers have taken over the world and countries are getting technologically locked down more secure than Fort Knox with their citizens put captive in the net of “intelligence” where others have more rights above your privacy? Oh, or didn’t I mention already, that privacy is no more for a long time? It’s like the terrorists have won and our own people who got the power to change, have taken over to keep all the others in terror…

And the world keeps going on, we keep swallowing which we are given to eat and breath and keep accepting what goes on around us. We all call it the “normal way of living”, where we deal what gets on the menu by daily base. But, for how long exactly till things get really out of hand, where everyones comfort is at risk? Or atleast; which we used to call comfort in the old days as gentlemen, where one of the primary rules was to stay friendly to everyone at all times and discuss and relativate problems, instead of sponsoring the nearest hospital.

That reality … should not be true for any country around the world.

If you don’t like it, you can always try to bend reality to your own way by reading quantum space…

Honestly, I’ve never been that shocked in my life as I’ve been the last hour and a half. This documentaire discusses the different aspects of animal cruelty for our own behalf.

Just like we are a group of social living creatures; animals sure deserve “their place” on this large world too! We should think better before slaying animals with pain just for religion or fashion.

We often don’t see what happens before with those clothes we wear, the dinner we eat and the pet we got. This movie is a strong outline of what would happen if all of these production facilities would have glass walls.

Do think, is it really worth it that much to be wearing the latest fashion linked with often dozens of minutes of pain? I’m not asking you to become veggie; although; do mind the steak you are trowing away might have been a real painsteak before!

If you can’t do something about it, think about it, because by ignoring this fact the horror will continue till there is no link anymore between us, humanity and the rest of this beautiful world!

I’m going to dedicate an entire section on my site about my encounters with technology. The good and the bad sides. I’ll discuss these throughout with my wits and perspective.

In some parts I’d already be dreaming of gadgets which are still not available on this planet. The current age has created us toys which can be as small as a phone, to the size of a cricket.

Still, I am amazed what this world spawns. From armored card machines to automatic vacuum cleaners. Still, with an expense. The software is often out-to-date, slow, not userfriendly or even insecure to use while sitting in that nice armored behemot.

Topics to be opened soon (with short introduction):

• Personal Computer Widescreen is the only way to go?You can’t walk over the street without seeing these fancy laptops with glossy screens. I can’t stand glossy but I must say this is rather a preference. Still, where are those normal LCD screens which are NOT widescreen? I have to buy a 22″ widescreen before I can use the normal resolution of a normal 20 inch screen!
• Computer systems a menace for the tactical audiophile?Lot’s of DJ’s prefer MP3’s and computer systems to mix. I don’t give a damn, these things don’t give any tactical feedback at all. Same for the production of music. Fruityloops, Cubase, Reason or good sequencer can be used for dance tracks. One small detail, you’re working on a screen without any buttons, unless you got your controller placed in front of you. Still, where’s the fun of having seperate devices and using them modular? Different outputs, controls, feedback and learning curve. Everything can be done in software but you’ll still be limited by that software. I’ve been working with software for over 10 years, abandoned it for real hardware and have been producing ever well since that change!
• Noisy slow computer-systems everywhere!Last time I was sitting at a desk I was terribly annoyed by the vacuum cleaner next to my ear. Not only this vacuum cleaner had an alternating noise, just like my PC has at home, but it was slow as freak too. Remarkable, like the PC at home too! I am missing that age of silent computing. The P3 and P4 were pretty stable in sound, why do these newer CPU’s have to immitate that 5$ vacuum cleaner you found at the pawn shop?
• Data storage, a window to a black age for the greedy?
  
  Data storage opened a portal to many ways. For audio and video it was the solution for high-definition productions. It opened an entire new door to distributed computing, bloated software and operating systems with the size you could yank “MOMMA?” at! It also opened a bad doorway to those who are greedy and out of empowering their wealth. Data collection happens at governmental level but in end 2000 also at corporation level. This data can be used and abused at any given time; for as long as it exists. Do you still feel safe with that innocent mail which became illegal 50 years later?
• Immortality at a price of knowledge.Want to be immortal? Too bad! You got to die! Still, you can be immortal in many ways. The information high-way has evolved to an entire incorporated society which can pass your soul for many ages! Immortality at the price of bandwidth. If you create content which is worthy surviving for eternity you should sure think about the Internet to do so!
• Updates & Windows still not the safest way to go!Those updates, together with one of the top-best virus-scanners are still not best. This month a hacker tried to access one of my XP systems while I was working on it. Stupid. This system was fully patched, fully firewalled with F-secure Internet Security. It didn’t help. After cleaning the system completely of any backdoors (and there were 3 installed!) I noticed another box popping up. A nice Courtesy Shell. This was time to reinstall this machine, put it on another IP, firewall it externally and honeynet this attacker. Bottom line of the story: Updates and firewalls installed on machine level are not always as safe as you think!
• Defective public transportation automation.In Belgium we got these armored machines, running under a very cheap system which provides tickets to use the public transportation. It’s a nice system when it’s broken for sure! If only these tram-drivers would have the guts to price for the normal price when it’s broken!
• Cards everywhere! Do I need a new wallet?A card for these 2 shops I go to and one for the bakery where I buy croissants at, two to get a pizza at the corner, one for these office supplies, credit card, SIS card and I’m for sure not ending here. These cards often are not fully understood in policy…
• Windows Vista, is bloat really necessary?Windows Vista, the new flagship of Microsoft is not really more than an upgraded XP, with new screen/presentation enhancements, much slower and uses lots more memory. Together with the vacuum cleaner mentioned before.. Great! I knew there was a reason to live!
• Lots more …

When GB started having cards to save points I’ve lost one card. Because the card was used together with my partner, I’ve ordered a new one as soon as Happy Days was introduced. I have never received any disclaimer until last week.

As any good citizen, I fill in the new form at GB for the transfer of the old cards to the new card. The new card was activated and the old cards were terminated. I’ve again received no rules and no mentioning about termination dates, till today at the phone.

These saved points were not transferred after 5 months which made me demand more information by phone. Both cards were lost in their administration, although I’ve had a copy with the barcode which saved my account. Finally they fixed the malignant balance with the one card I’ve had in copy. First time I’ve lost points with Happy Days but cheer up, it won’t happen again, will it?

Today, I’ve decided to transfer my old card and all tickets which I’ve saved under the spare GB card to the new Happy Days card; which I’ve registered just a week ago with a brand new package, including 2 cards, a paper form and a disclaimer; certainly something new afterall.

The lady at the phone responded both my 2 old cards were terminated. The +1400 points could not be recovered. Not only the card was terminated but 80% of my tickets were scrap because, if you don’t shop your account gets terminated after 6 months.

Conclusions of me?

1. You have to shop inbetween 6 months or you are terminated.
2. There goes my trip which took more than a year before!
3. The lady could see the identity was missing on the previous card but cannot see the balance?
4. I’ve put 2 weeks of labor to transfer my old GB cards to the new Happy Days card and my identity is missing?
5. Happy Days lost 1 of the 2 old GB cards!
6. The lady mentioned every GB ticket mentions the 6 months invalidation but none does!
7. I should be mentioned by the cashier about the expiration terms was the next answer…
8. I received no disclaimer till past week mentioning me expiration dates of cards.
9. I’ve lost over 4 years of saving because of rules which are created without the customer knowing?
10. Happy Days lost my points before, which of one card was retained using a copy!
11. I’ve been deliberately waiting because I wanted to get everything done in one step, to avoid too much administrative hassle (like before with GB to Happy Days!), this together with my partners card.
12. So practically, I saved all that time for nothing!

Because of database cleanups I have become virtually non-existant unless I use their stores inside their terms. Great!

Happy-Days, thanks for putting years faith in you
I’ll sure remember you .. RIP in my wallet!

Yesterday I went to the local electronics store where stuff gets sold for audio, video, oscilloscopes, multimeters, solder, crocodile clamps and lots more…

I needed to make a cable for the Fluke CableIQ qualification tester to check pin by pin; since this cable was not in stock at the dealer and it would probably cost 100x more anyways. I went in the store in a hurry, got the equipment with me and we had the following dialog:

[me] Hi, I see you got fluke in your etalage, do you sell these testleads?
[shopkeeper] No I’m afraid we don’t have these.
[me] do you got any test leads which I can use to make a cable for this device here? <while taking out manual>
[shopkeeper] I don’t got any separate leads.
[me] Do you got any colored crocodile clamps? I want to be able to make this cable, I already got the connector to go to the device but I’d like a nicer solution for the ending leads
[shopkeeper] Let me see what I got
… <after a time> …
[shopkeeper] I got these crocodile clamps, but only in red and black.
[me] That’s better than nothing, how many of these you got? I’d like to have 5 of each.
<to be sure because these things do break around the plastic too>
… <after a time> …
[shopkeeper] I got 5 of these and 4 of these.
… <In the whiletime an older man with a beard comes in> …
[me] Where is the time when you had these in colored?
[shopkeeper] That time is already gone for long, it’s not being sold anymore…
[me] But you do still sell soldering irons I hope
[shopkeeper] No, as a matter of fact even Dynatek is stopping with multimeters. Soldering irons do not get sold anymore, everything is getting micro-smd etc..
[me] Where is the time when we learned about these things, using resistors, capacitators, making stuff?
[shopkeeper] Now they learn to draw in schools, but most of the electronic parts we have abandoned because it does not sell anymore.
[me] That’s bad, we with the soldering irons are getting extinct, so everyone just throws everything away??
[shopkeeper] Basically yes, most stuff cannot be repaired or gets swapped with modules.
[me] Do you still got those packages with many 5 or 10 testleads in one?
[shopkeeper] Yes let me see.
[guy with beard] The challenge seems to be gone for most around us, it’s sad, although not everything is new and small and smd
[shopkeeper] I have these?
[me] <while looking> yes, these are a lot better and are which I search for, I want two packages of these.
[shopkeeper] that will me 8 euro 70 cents together please.
… <taking my money and paying< …
[guy with beard] Also a package of test leads please and pays up

Moral of story ..
Do we need to throw everything away when it still can be fixed just for the sake of having the newest model or type on our desk?

Sorry, this entry is only available in Nederlands.

Saturday night, 14th may 2004, me, Pi (my soulmate) and Jo (a good friend who wanted a ride to central station) went to my car. At the other end of the street there are 2 heavy men with black uniforms walking towards us.

Jo wanted to close the door while I was already standing at the door of the drivers side. Suddenly the 2 guys jump to the door of Jo, pull it open and the guys start to bash Jo in my car by kicking in his face with combats.

Pi was sitting in the back all safe, Jo tried to protect himself and I did not know what was happening when I saw it happening through my window of the car. Jo and Pi heard them shouting “vuile flikker” (which means “filthy faggot”).

I was getting very scared they where going to kick Jo to death and tried to intervene. One of the guys went to me and started kicking with his fists on my face, nose and throat, kicking inbetween the groin, …

I ran away (else I was being severely beaten) and the 2 guys ran out of the street. A mate I see when I go out saw everything happening in front of his car; I asked him to follow these guys directly. 15 minutes we have been following both guys till they splitted. Another 7 minutes we have been following one of the guys around the Katoennatie in Antwerpen.

That man tried everything to shake us off, trying to run back, crawling behind a bus, waiting on the corner and running like hell, ….

While we where following I was waiting +7 minutes in hold on the policeline (which is a scandal to my opinion) to hear they do not have any policeman available to help us. I had to redial 4 times because there were still no agents available.

After 22 minutes we saw a policecar passing by (which was FREE and not even knowing what was going on!?!) and I jumped out (the still driving car) and started shouting and holding the police that they needed to arrest the guy we where following. That guy was arrested and currently already back on the streets.

When one of the guys was hitting me on the throat I pulled away and that guy hitted me on not even a centimeter next to my adamsappel. After the doctor examined me it seemed that he aimed on a deadly spot. (I’M ALIVE !!!!!!!!!!!). I didn’t even feel the kick in my groin (UGH?) and I also wonder if this wasn’t “a attempt of murder”. Considering how they where kicking with boots in Jo’s face and tried to kick me straight on my adamsappel.

I had a little cut in my throat causing me to bleed inside (which is going a little bit too far to my opinion). My car is broken on my brake, cellular phone, gearshift, outside.

They did it probably for fun, the kick, because we did not have any contact with these guys, we didn’t even know them.

I really wanted atleast 1 guy to be taken into custody, he’s Belgian and the 2nd one I don’t know anything about. The other guy had a black shirt with round logo on his back, short hair and is for as far as I know not been found. One is arrested at the Katoennatie.

Jo was quite beaten on his head, his hips where fully blue and there were 3 minor cuts on his head and a brain-shake. I had a blue eye, my throat was damaged, head, nose and inbetween my legs.

I think I hereby informed enough about the current condition of:

(1) how this society is these days and
(2) what the current condition of my health is.

I have difficulties living in such demotivating society where you NEED to learn how to beat to survive.

updates:

25 may 2004 – 29 may 2004
At night I was getting very sick. Vomiting blood, oversensitive (pain) for light and sounds and fevers of 39 degrees celcius. This probably because of infection in my throat.

30 may 2004
my fever has dropped to normal levels, 37-37.5 celcius, my head still hurts like hell and I am less sensitive to light and sounds. I am still caughing up blood.

well .. this update is one year later 2 september 2005 … The guys got free from everything, the lady justice has her blindfold on proving she is really blind!

ZKboi

I am writing this article as a “cry for attention”, because I don’t really feel home anymore in this society. I see a lot of things changing and I don’t find it positive at all.

I see lack of respect, lack of principles, lack of safety, less friendlyness between people, more and more egoistic people (on the road), more demand to power and money, more criminality, more trash, discrimination and I see a society that’s really killing eachother …

I hope by writing this article to reach certain (groups of) people who might think “this is true” or “yes, I could help to change this”, maybe that little step could be a big change in society to get it living again…

People are very easy influenced, some are influenced by talking, discussions and some are influenced by media like movies, television, newspapers, books, etc… A lot of people are thinking like a collective, there is a leading party and they just follow. I can understand a lot of people are less individual and counting on the support of the society, but, is that support really there when you really need it? Or do you feel accepted if you are (a bit) different in certain views or actions?

“The lack of individualism is destroying the society !”

A lot of people are currently living in their “protected environment” called society .. but is it really that safe? Are you really protected or could it be you can be a danger for other people by thinking like that? Are you protected by the society? In a certain way you feel very protected, you feel you have help whenever you need to but what if “the bug” of society hits you in the face?

If you think very deep about it you might find your answer. Below here I am going to give a few examples and I only ask you, think about it, but look at it very sober, without pink-glasses …

You can tell “look at it on the bright side” but what if that side is not bright at all? Why would I need to believe and look to an illusion? Sometimes I wonder if I am the only person seeing all these changes but then, sometimes I find somebody who is also thinking the same and even understanding me … These people make me feel better because I am not the only one and there is a problem …

The problem is growing bigger and bigger and as a single individual I could not change this, a lot of individuals could change this.

Do not ask me to change myself to “the” society and change my basic principles I grew up with because I simply cannot do that, they are me, my personality, my strength and my believe. I believe in myself, I believe in what I do and I believe in 100% respect for anything on this world, sure for humans, animals and the rest of the nature. A lot of people are not having that 100% respect or do not think straight enough about the consequences …

Hence, a lot of people seem to not live their live but let others control their live! How pathetic and cynical does the word “living” mean to them?

Some examples …

1. I see lack of respectThese days I see a lot of lack of respect for animals, the nature and mainly for other humans. A lot of people are not being listened to, fights … Having respect for somebody or something is caring for that somebody/something as if it is your own blood, your own property. I respect everybody, even my worst enemy, for 100%. I will still try to understand, talk, take care of problems with respect in a decent way. I will not go fighting over something that can be solved by talking, neither I will use somebodies property for purposes it should not be used for …
2. lack of principlesPrinciples are for me the basic rules in life. One of my principles is that I will not hurt anybody, no humans, animals or objects (which cannot be hurt but rather broken).
   I will not bring somebody in danger, I will care about anybody I see and I will help wherever really needed.

   Another principle is that I will respect anybody or anything for 100%, I will not change that respect. This does not mean I trust anybody I see. My trust is 50/50 with people, some people deserve my trust and some not; partially because it’s my life and my safety.

   Discrimination is another principle, I will never discriminate in colors, size, race, or whatever you can discriminate on. Everybody is equal in my book. Somebody trying to hurt me in one or another way will not get my trust and I will protect myself but I will never look to a group of people as it if would be “their fault”. It’s not because there are Belgian criminals every Belgian citizen is a criminal.

   I have a lot of principles and certain principles are literally being broken by others. This feels very bad. My principle in safety is continuesly being broken on the road, in my life by other people … This feels even worse than bad!

   I really start to wonder how much people really do have principles in their life in these dark times …

   I wonder even more how many people are really keeping themselves on their principles, not breaking them all the time …

3. lack of safetyLook at the roads, how many people are actually still using their direction lights? How many people think about you while you want to pass by with your car? How many people are so egoistic thinking the road is only for them only while driving ONLY on the left lane while the right lane is completely free? A lot of these people are causing a lot of danger on the roads, safety is a oxymoron if you do not participate with it … Enough said about the road…Safety between people is also a problem these days, for example in sex. More and more people are doing unsafe sex infecting other people while mostly not even knowing this.A lot of people think “everything will be allright” but it won’t be allright by itself, nature will not help you in safety, YOU will be the piece in the chain of safety to help in a better and safer future …
4. less friendliness between peopleHow many people say thank you these days? Or how many people greet you on the street? Do you say goodmorning at your baker? Do you talk to your neightbours or do you really care about your friends? I have a very friendly pharmasist who says “hi” every time I see him and I say “hi” back. This because we do exist and we like that both, that can be expressed by simply saying a “hi” to your neighbour…Customer support is also getting scarce, it seems to be the customer is no longer the king but the corporations want to be the king. Do not forget that corporations ONLY exist if there are customers … Treat them right and you will keep them but treat them wrong and eventually your business will die….
5. more and more egoistic people (on the road)As I told in the “safety” chapter, people are getting more and more egoistic… I added the “on the road” part because I see that problem mostly on the road, in the car, on the streets, at the sidewalk …People are thinking more and more about themselves and their property only. Their selfimportance. I can only say one thing to all the people…“Take care of your fellow human and that fellow human will take care of you, be egoistic and you create egoism back”What will it be if the world will be full of egoism? Thinking only about their own goal, vision, property?

   I can tell, it will die, slowly, with pain, humans are made to be with eachother, to interact with eachother, not to fight or to only protect your own property but also to protect eachother … To care about eachother – the least you can do!

6. more demand to power and moneyBecause of egoism there is more and more demand for power and money. Currently there are leaders at the top of their country and citizens using their power on a wrong way. They want more power or want to use it for wrong purposes.Mostly this power is connected with money, more power is more money. Look at the mega-corporations, scams, criminality and maybe your government…Do you still believe you are not being influenced by people who are really having the power in influencing you? Mostly because of money ? The “economy” rules the world this time.
7. more criminalityThere is more and more criminality these days, less respect means harder crimes. Living is getting expensive, power is expensive and money is for some people a problem. Does this mean society is blowing up itself?
8. more trashIf I look outside I see shit lying on the curbs, I see trash lying in my street, this while I am living in the better areas of the city of Antwerpen. If more people would care about their fellow-citizens the cities would be a lot cleaner to live in. I need to watch my step or I have dirty shoes.
9. discriminationDiscrimination is a very bad bug in society. It’s getting worse and worse in time. There is getting a difference between poor and rich, black and white, heterosexual and homosexual, Christian and Moslim, Belgian and Hollander, …Why is there a difference while we are all humans? What makes me different of being a Belgian? Why do you need to be having money before you can be part of society? Why would I be different because I have a white skin instead of a black skin?We are all different, unique, but being white or black is not the difference, your thinking, feelings and expression is the difference … Please people, think about this, think about your fellow human… It will only be better to like eachother instead of hating eachother just because that color or that one difference …

I hope to have reached somebody and something by writing this article, I translated it to dutch especially to reach the most people …

Please think about it.. ok?

ZKboi

With a sad heart I am actually writing this article. The time has come to write something that has been on my stumach for way too long.

Antwerpen seems to be getting a ghost town at certain ways and seems to be alive at other ways …

I am living in the “cleaner” neightbourhoods of Antwerpen; the old center of Antwerpen. Almost 5 years ago I decided to live in Antwerpen both because it is “the city” (in Dutch “‘t stad”) and because it appeared to be a good city.

These days I am less proud of living in Antwerpen though. It happens to be I have over 20 parking tickets whereof there are over 15 to be wrong. I have a card that allows me to park for free at certain areas of the city and police seems to be blind because I am getting parking tickets a-volonte.

Dog shit is another reason that happens to be hate-factor number two. People do not watch where their dogs shit and leave it lying there in the middle of the street or right in front of your door instead of cleaning it up. Not only dog poop is loitering around in the streets but garbage, paper, shoes, furniture, everything you might not imagine is being strew around in the neightbourhoods.

Tourists are passing by my street daily showing the beautifull side of Antwerpen though the buildings may be in full beauty but the streets are a complete mess.

Parking signs get added and at the same day police puts a fine under the windshield wiper while Belgian law requires signs to be added 48 hours in front.

I am sad to write this article with so much negative critisism but it is wat I feel as good citizen of Antwerpen.

Is the city dieing ? What’s happening ? Is the city not able to keep their territory clean anymore ? Is the city getting unmanagable ?

The crime is also getting sky high. Every window of my car has been replaced at least once. The door of my company has been burglared at least 3 times. My neightbours upstairs got robbed while sleeping and burglars tried to break in while I was sleeping leaving my door everything but undamaged.

What happened to the city I liked that much ? What happened with the feeling that I liked to be “Antwerpenaar” ? To be proud of the city you live in …

I do not trust the police nor the city management anymore because of these bad issues. I have catched 2 14yr old criminals doing parking-automat thefth, called the police and they where not found.

A few hours later the alarm of the company goes off and I go look downstairs. Those 2 kids where trying to break in the company with a screwdriver. Anyway … The kids where arrested and released not even a few hours later.

I have been robbed 4 times whereof 2 times successfull. These days I do fight back, if somebody tries to hurt me I will hurt them back with a double rate.

Don’t go to the police though or they tell you need to stay in the country because of possession of forbidden weapons because I hit them back with a pair of handcuffs and the second time with material I had in my back of my car *AFTER* being hit with a 4 inch pipe on the back !! What the hell happened to self defence?

There is a big issue going on in Antwerpen and things will need to change because living in a ghost city is something nobody likes. Not even the proud citizens of Antwerpen … ‘t Stad.

I currently am citizen of a city where you cannot sleep quietly on 2 ears … I cannot walk through the streets while looking down without stepping in dogpoop or other stuff loitering around on the streets and the worst … I cannot make a walk without being bothered or being robbed in my own town. Not only this but I am getting robbed by that same city with parking fines that are not even grounded or not lawfully written.

Yet again, I am feeling very bad to write this negative critisism about the city I live in but as you probably might know .. it are feelings and feelings can be considered true.

I pay taxes to my city, country, … and the only thing I see in return is crime, death and decay … Sadly but true …

Do you want to leave a comment about this subject? down here!

This short piece is dedicated to my wondering and pondering about a trend called voting. A lot of profile databases on the net have voting, if you see to television you see people voted out of a game (eg Bigbrother)…

Did the society change that much everybody needs to have a number put on the head? Where is all that self-confidence by nature?

The television has changed also a lot … Whereof we heard complaining from the USA about violence and sensation we are seeing it here in Europe on the tube. Everything is more-commercial than ever and sensation is in baby! Today we have sensation like Cops-and-Robbers, Judge Judy, psychological games with people (somewhat like a ratrace in a maze) like Big Brother and all derivates, ….

It’s already a few years the world is changing … I can be optimistic or pessimistic as I want but it seems to be a few years now that crime is getting high-rates, war, nukes, alcohol, sex(lines and their stupid commercials), drug, sensation and psychological f*cking is the topic-du-jour.

Think what you want .. and if you want to write your toughts down you can do it down here!